Life makes more and less sense all day, every freakin’ day lately. I am working with a new therapist, Xaime. He/They made a profound comment during our first session that got my hamster wheel spinning in a way that made me uncomfortably comforted. “Let us have Vulnerability take us places we have never been,” he said in such a tone and in a way that I knew he saw me and my struggle with being seen. Ah… Jessica, my Embodied Dreamworks Instructor described what seeing me was like for her so well, something along the lines of seeing me scratching my way out of those depths. I’m not one to appreciate being seen but I really enjoyed being seen by her. Especially in the beautifully acknowledging way in which she did. I’m taking her class again, starting in a few weeks, I’m so stoked to continue this journey. This is an integral part of my healing and life path, I know it in my soul, at my core, without an ounce of doubt.
I love that I have Mikel Jollet’s talk on Trauma and Creativity coming up on 04 April to look forward to. I’m traveling East to attend this talk. My friend,
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I came across this draft that has been sitting here forgotten for nearly two years. I no longer work with Xaime, due to insurance providers and coverage. Our time together was short and I’m grateful that our paths crossed.
I ended up taking the Dreamworks class twice, each time great for a different reason. I learned a lot of helpful tools that I have used in my life. I feel that the tools and practices that I adopted as a result of that class really helped me to trust myself more deeply. It helped me gain confidence in how I present in the world and was an overall great experience. I have been thinking that I would benefit greatly from working with my dreams again. The struggle to have a legitimate spiritual/self-care/ritual practice is real… But so is the commitment, so I focus on the progress. 🙂
I traveled to Massachusets and planned for a single Trauma and Creativity Talk and was super stoked that there were two talks, one at Harvard and one at Williams. I flew out to Boston and stayed with my friend who took a few days off from work to spend the time with me. It was a surreal experience to get to listen to Mikel make sense of some of the experiences that I could never fully express or even understand about growing up “orphan” though my parents were alive… Anyhow, it was really fun to visit my friend, and meet one of her besties whom I wanted to meet since I first heard about him at 16 years old. He was just as welcoming and chill as I had imagined, I’m glad that Renee and him have each other as life-long friends…
As I type this, I am watching the Williams interview. My attention is being called there.
